hmm, does anybody but valerie reads these blogs of mine? does valerie even read them?
if you decide to read this valerie, please read the whole thing.
if not, please don’t read it at all…
i feel so drained and tired. i want to try, yet another part of me says it’s useless. every single time i try i fail again and again. i want to stand, but it seems i can’t…
it’s funny, a little baby could stand up every single time it falls. us adults can’t do the same, we give up too easily. but i suppose we also realize that some things are impossible to accomplish no matter how hard we try……
is this impossible to me? i don’t know. though it does seem like so.
so the other day, my sister asked, “did you know HE has a wife and kid?!”
and my mom & grandma said “stupid, of course he does, he’s old.”
and inside, i laughed. some people said there is somebody for everybody. well, i guess that might be true, but i don’t think everybody can find that somebody…… i’m sure there’s somebody out there who had never experienced “love”. oh how afraid i am to be one of them…
so are you reading this valerie?….. did you know i liked you? gross isn’t it? haha. an old fart like me…….. you don’t have to worry about tat anymore though!…. i know it wouldn’t work out anyways. =P
but in ur opinion, should i have told you before, or stay quiet like i did, until i got over you?
people said i should just let out my feelings. people said i should try, cuz “you’ll never know.” i’m sure i asked you that before, about what i should do. and u said i should try. though, i didn’t listen, i gave up on you. am i wrong not to listen to ur opinion, should i have tried? i would like to know.
there’s this girl i know. i’ve known her for about 5 years… wat can i say, i’m afraid. i’ve failed once too many times. i don’t know where to start. part of me just wants to give up before i even started. not sure if she’s interested… doesn’t seem like it…..
hehe, yeah….. i’m asking for ur advice/opinion. you may be young, but i think u’r answers could help me out.
if you did read this and want to reply, EMAIL me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
i would greatly appreciate it.
ps: sorry if this puts you in an awkward position…
hello thereee, uh . so i’m pretty shocked, but i kinda new it happened. i saw your feelings show when we started to get to know each other a bit more. to tell the truth, of course i saw you like an older brother. nothing really more, & i’m sorrry /: if i was such’a let down for you and had you going through a hard time. in my opinion, i think you should have not exactly told me right away, [ or when you like someone ] but give it some time. most of the time, if you think about it, time won’t tell. so for that, you gotta make your own decisions too. most of the time, it’s best to face your fears. even tho there’s a 50/50 chance of good & bad, you’re gonna be in a big relief afterwards. i’ve learned from most things that the more you hold things it, the bigger your stress will grow.
sooo this girl, you known her for 5 years eh? that’s a really long time, hmmm. i think when everything in your life is clear, ( like when school’s out of the way, and family ; stress free? ) but that — face it to her. try not to tell her RIGHTAWAY, like i like you. AHAH, that’s just awkward & creeepy. maybe lead her into the converstation, as if anyone special is part of her life & i gueess that’ll keep the convo flowing. if she tries to change the subject, she’s probably not in the mood to talk about it or just not interested yet to talk ‘bout that . wait, that sounded the same, but you got the point.
i hope i helped a bit, i have NO IDEA where i learn all this from! WOW valerie :P i wish you the best n, gooodluck. MY FEET HURT ):
don’t worry about it. i have a pretty good intuition. i wouldn’t say i was let down. you still make me smile a lot. =P and yes, time doesn’t really tell…. haha. ok, it will if the other person makes a move, but yeah…lol.
yeah, we’ve been just classmates. (she graduated already).
you see, i want one before i get a job and all. the reason is, i don’t want a girl to follow me just because i can make money, or because they know i can be successful. a lot of adults just think tat way. they follow people who they think are successful. and i think it’s wrong. tat’s not true love.
highschoolers love each other just because they enjoy the presences of the other person. tat’s how i think love should be. they don’t think about money or what the other person is capable of becoming. they love just because.
anyhow, thanx for the advice. =)