so this will be my last semester in getting my bachelor degree. and after that i will be going into the “teaching credential program” if i get accepted. HOWEVER, i’m stupid and didn’t do any of the paperworks (cuz i’m so clueless), and haven’t taken any of the tests to qualify me into the program! all the paperworks and stuff are due in exactly 2 weeks, and it’s practically impossible to get everything in on time. which means, i’ll prob have a semester break from school……
i’m just so clueless sometimes! and i hate it! just like 3 or 4 years ago. i took a graphic design class. i suppose to turn in my portfolio to get into the next class. i came to class and saw EVERYBODY turning in their portfolio, and i’m like, “wat?! we suppose to turn it in today?!”. and my friend said “yeah, he sent us an email.” i then opened my laptop and went through my mails. i somehow missed and didn’t see the email. the ONLY unread email. the email had everything we suppose to put into the portfolio, and stuff. in the end, i quit the graphic design program. honestly, if i were to taken the next class, i’ll only have like 3 more classes to graduate.
in 8th grade, i was suppose to take the highschool exam test. i went to Bellarmine to take the test, and my name wasn’t listed on the window (which tells us which room to go to). my older brother was there with me, and asked “did you sign up?” and im like “what do you mean? we need to sign up?” =\ luckily, they just let me in and take the test.
i dunno… something’s just wrong with me. it seems i can’t do anything right unless somebody is there to guide me step-by-step…….
so yeah, i’ll be wasting away a 6 months of my life (next semester)……..
i’m freaken 25 yrs old, still haven’t gotten my Bachelor, while prob most of my HS friends already graduated, some with ur Masters and PHD. some with a family, and here i am…… still in school, single, living at home depending on my parents……. i honestly do feel quite useless.
so always get the question…. “why won’t you try a different major? teachers don’t make much money; especially art teachers. and it’s also hard to find a job.” i would if i could! there’s really nothing i’m good at. my english sucks, my math isn’t even great, maybe average. not good at science either. and i’m not “lanh” enuff to be a business major or anything of sort.
i am honestly fearful of my future……
i haven’t given up. but i do hope the day comes soon, when i can be fully confident and be independent.